11
Jul

我恨..(不要为了这件事而来陪我说话。。没用的。。)

我们从中一认识到现在。。我发觉。。我们朋友之间的磨擦越来越大。。感情也慢慢的悄悄的退化。。为什么我会这么觉得。。我不知道。。我们分开了两年。。每当相见。。也变得冷淡。。无话题。。我有好几次想找话题。。结果呢?还是恢复冷漠。。这不是北极。。我都会冷。。==

我们为什么会这样。。多对方总是越来越多的偏见。。我不爱在moral节陪朋友们。。因为个分个的。。铭嘉走一旁做功课。。老包和嘉惠。。淑和黑皮(dunno name)美和宝盛他们。。我呢? 被丢在一旁。。走来走去。。自己不属于这个地方。。我突然不懂得如何和朋友沟通了。。我想这样的。。我这样。。会不会有人讨厌我。。有的会说我想太多。。是。。我知道。。可是。。我恨被抛弃的感觉。。

一回到家。。要面对臭peter。。有的说我对他无礼。。是我要的?你头。。是妈妈叫我常叫他去读书。。我以前用好好的态度说。。结果?hiu都不hiu。。妈妈叫我用骂的。。好。。用了。。就说哦。。还常和我顶嘴。。说我bodoh。。什么都不懂的啦。。

他每天玩电脑。。我叫他要去读书了哦。。可是呢?他只哦哦哦可是还玩到晚上。。我叫他读书有罪?骂我bodoh。。算了。。哼。。

他早上起不来。。我叫他醒。。每天重复做一样的事。。你不会气哦?还害我差点迟到。。只是问他你为什么没天起不来的? 他就大声骂我。。说我你自己不会先走啊!

走啦我走。。你以为我要等你的咩。。是妈妈叫我们一起走我才等你哝。。不然我睬你都傻。。

我迟起就那么一次。。他连叫我都没有叫。。就走了。。是啦。。他比我大。。什么都对啦。。我错。。

我猪。。我bodoh。。apa apa pun tak tau。。我做错了?

有人在家等于没人。。有人还弄得自己不愉快。。和娃娃说话都比人还好。。

我做做错了吗?告诉我。。我到底哪里做错了。。我恨这些事。。我恨。。

09
May

母亲节快乐~

亲爱的妈妈, 谢谢您常常骂我, 谢谢您常常唠叨我, 谢谢您以前用藤鞭处罚我。 都是因为你, 我才会变成一个乖女儿。 如果没有你, 我可能是一个“太妹”了。 以前的我是个爱哭的小子, 我不听话时, 你会骂我, 我没做功课时, 你会像只壁虎黏着我。 以前会觉得你很烦, 但是, 回想起来, 如果没有你的唠叨, 我不但没做功课, 还会全身不自在呢。。

  在这个“母亲节”里, 我特地写了这篇作文, 不是因为要“complain", 因为我要说声对不起。 因为我的所作所为, 所让您担心的, 一切。。都对不起。。还有一句”我爱你“!!

  我爱你因为你为了我做了不少事情, 我爱你因为你教导我哪是对哪是错。。 我绝对相信 “世上的妈妈都是伟大” 的。。 因为您永远都是我最爱最敬佩的妈妈! 任何人, 美女, 妖怪, 女强人都无法代替我的无敌妈妈哟~

                       妈妈。。母亲节快乐!!

02
Apr

好多个为什么。。

为什么上了中学就会产生恋爱?为什么自己就是控制不了自己的情绪?为什么多年的朋友还是不了解她?为什么要拒绝告白的时候会口齿呢?为什么被委屈的时候会生气?我的生活中产生了许多的为什么。。

被人追的感觉是不好的,我不是说我美,因为我知道我不美。

每次要拒绝人的时候,我忠实说不出口。我觉得自己好烂。

爸爸说过,到了青春的时候,很多世界上很烦的东西都会在你的四周包围着你。你会觉得很厌倦,很累。所以,我常常祷告的和耶稣说我的苦衷,他很好,他不会把秘密说出去,也不会笑你,他会默默的安慰你,把你的烦恼都拿走。每当和他说完我的烦恼时,心里的结就好像松了似的。耶稣我爱你!!

恋爱。。我走过了。。有难受的时候,也有幸福的时候。但是,陪自己的时间好象变少了。爱情就像毒品一样,当你喜欢他的时候,你会默默的帮助他,悄悄的看着他。看着他笑,自己也会偷偷的笑起来。 但是爱情的毒品没了的时候,看到他都不会看一眼,会渐渐的开始讨厌他,聊天的时间也少了。到底会有谁真的了解我的苦衷。。到底有谁是我真正能把整件事情一五一十的告诉他/她。。我好难受,每当我不开心的时候,我不会把心情露出来。。我会藏在一个很深很深的地方。。我会躲在房间里,自言自语的说出来。。有时,朋友问我为什么不开心的时候,我不会回答他/她但是确哭出来了。。因为。。我肯本不懂得怎么说,自己的心情,自己永远都不会明白。。

我再也不会碰爱情这个毒品。因为,我拥有了友情。。我很高兴我能够认识她们六个,六个这个数目虽然不多。。但是,对我而言,已经足够了。。自high一族万岁!!!!

28
Nov

As I was walking
down life’s highway
many years ago

I came upon a
sign that read

Heavens Grocery Store.

When I got a
little closer

the doors swung
open wide 

And when I came
to myself

I was standing
inside.

I saw a host of
angels.


They were
standing everywhere

One handed me a
basket

and said "My
child shop with care."

Everything a
human needed

was in that
grocery store

And what you
could not carry

you could come
back for more

First I got some
Patience.

Love was in that
same row.

Further down was
Understanding,

you need that
everywhere you go.

I got a box or
two of Wisdom

and Faith a bag
or two.

And Charity of
course

I would need some
of that too.

I couldn’t miss
the Holy Ghost

It was all over
the place.

And then some
Strength

and Courage to
help me run this race.

My basket was
getting full

but I remembered
I needed Grace,

And then I chose
Salvation for

Salvation was for
free

I tried to get
enough of that to do

for you and me.

Then I started to
the counter

to pay my grocery
bill,

For I thought I
had everything

to do the Masters
will.

As I went up the
aisle
 

I saw Prayer and
put that in,

For I knew when I
stepped outside

I would run into
sin.

Peace and Joy
were plentiful,

the last things
on the shelf.

Song and Praise
were hanging near

so I just helped
myself.
 

Then I said to
the angel

"Now how much do
I owe?"

He smiled and
said

"Just take them
everywhere you go."

Again I asked
"Really now,

How much do I
owe?"

"My child" he
said, "God paid your bill

a long long time
ago."

06
Nov

time is nvr enough…

I knelt to pray but not for long, 
I had too much to do. 
I had to hurry and get to work 
For bills would soon be due. 
So I knelt and said a hurried prayer,

And jumped up off my knees.
My Christian duty was now done 
My soul could rest at ease….. 
All day long I had no time 
To spread a word of cheer 
No time to speak of Christ to friends, 
They’d laugh at me I’d fear. 
No time, no time, too much to do, 
That was my constant cry, 
No time to give to souls in need 
But at last the time, the time to die.
I went before the Lord,
I came, I stood with downcast eyes. 
For in his hands God held a book; 
It was the book of life. 
God looked into his book and said 
‘Your name I cannot find 
I once was going to write it down…
But never found the time

19
May

MUAI BDAY~

hurray~ its muai bday~ and it is the best best best ever bday man~

can u imagine tt  ur frns wrote a letter to YES9.33 to celebrate the bday for me??!! isn’t it exciting~ i was so touch when i heard all dis.. on the 11th of may.. i celebrate muai bday in muai house for BBQ.. and we hav fun playing, acting, eatting, jokking~

they even bought a gife for me.. i was shock in the 1st place i gt the present.. y?? becoz of the price.. =X i ask dem y they bought such a expensive gife for me.. they said tt our friendship is not worth for RM10.. so they share and bought a beautiful memorable gife for me~ i nearly cried~

owh~ so touching.. one thing improtant here i wanted to said.. to everyone bu see muai blog..

"cherish all ur friends now and always, whatever they do wrong, forgive them and change them.."

07
Feb

My test result came out to a bad one…

haiz..bad bad bad results…muai favoriate subject onli get 60marks onli…i juz wish my Geography won’t get 60marks..i hav ad "Fail" 2 subject…i dun wan to get any more "Fail" subjects!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! pls dun come out a 40marks…i dun wan to see it…i juz can’t believe my results…no matter how hard i study.. whenever i reach sch…i juz forgot every single things tt i read in my mind…it juz when BLANK~~!!!! ish!… i juz wanna get good results…wish tt i will get good results in the next test…

05
Feb

my test…

aww..muai test day,,,its today..monday…sad…so hard…the day b4 i’ve study and on tt day..i juz forgot every single thing~!~! juz can’t believe it..but at least i remember some..juz forgot the spellin 4 muai sains~!~!..ish..><..i’m scared…scared…my KH exspeacially…prepare so hard…my father even teach me…but…still…FORGET~!~!…argh~!~!..tmr…one more day..one last test…wish i won’t forget…aiz…

31
Jan

unlucky day

Haiz…on friday…its my unlucky day…my sch came a teacher tt is a bit gila…we all called her "jia ya"..she is soooo horribe…and i think her interest is scolding ppl…can’t believe tt she scold me for not bringin my "pass keluar" when i go to lend teks book from my frn…ish..samore dare to say tt she shout "berhenti" to us…i can say tt she didn’t at all..nobody dare to take back…juz becoz her husband is a LAWYER…ish…even my teacher…when me and my frns kena scold…my teacher is so happy standing beside the "jia ya"….aaaa….i hate my sch teachers…cannot tahan ler…i wan to box dem…ish..ish…ish…